Last year I set forth the desire to know how to make perfect macarons – with a slightly raised foot and an uncracked top. I didn’t make it all the way there. I’ve gotten the foot smack on and they don’t crack anymore, but they are still more oval than round. (Something I can chalk up to my life-long animosity toward pastry bags and piping tips.) All things considered, I’m putting that one in the “win” column, if only because that’s perfect enough for me. (One of those “big,” “pervasive” and “intangible” things I learned this year, though it wasn’t something I set out to grasp, is the value of letting things go and not getting down over imperfections. I don’t want to be the next iron chef and I also don’t want to be that person who sucks all the joy out of what they’re doing by fussing over a cookie that flattened – it’s the flavor that I want to be good at, not the look.)
The internet is rife with people doing the same – Wardrobe Refashion and 101 in 1001. Even at HPFF people are being challenged to read all, or as many, of the Pulitzer winners as possible in 2010. I haven’t taken up any group causes but that doesn’t mean I won’t still spend a good deal of time searching for a support group of my very own.
- somehow stay awake until the end of the work day
- remain productive despite my desire to collapse into a pit of exhaustion
- go to bed early and drink lots of water
- design something for print. I made a promise to work on something every day and I’ve been working on everything but this.
- launch “the business”
- go to infinitus and have fun despite my misanthropic desire for anonymity.
- write a proposal for infinitus and try not to be self-sabotaging because of above or because I feel I have nothing of any real value to say to these people.
- be self-sabotaging for a new and unique reason.
- move some place a little wonderful
- edit undone and have the proof copy printed
- find someone who can give me honest feedback on same and ask for it.
- find a way to work from home, be it actual employment or freelance work
- send more care packages
- act my age and go out more often!
- keep writing, if only because it surprises people.
- continue to recognize that there is always something I don’t know how to do and learn to do it. (this feeds into my ultimate goal of possessing the title of MOST DIVERSELY EDUCATED PERSON EVER and ensuing WORLD DOMINATION)